Life with Baby K

April 23, 2008

The one thing I said I wouldn’t do…

Filed under: Friends,IVF #1,Nieces — by Jess @ 2:50 pm
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I just did the one thing I swore I wouldn’t do with this IVF cycle: I just pushed my cycle back a week. I was adamant about not doing that. I had decided that if I had to miss my friends wedding, than so be it. But last night I got an email from her asking me to do a reading during the ceremony. I couldn’t very well pass that up. But I wasn’t sure if there was anything I could do since I already started the lupron. So I called this morning and left a message for the IVF nurses. Ellen, the nurse who did my protocol class called back and I explained what had happened. She told me just to do an extra week of lupron to leave my ovaries in limbo a little longer and then I will start my stims the weekend of May 10th instead of May 3rd. While I didn’t want to push it back a week initially, I feel really good about this plan. Whats another week when I have already been waiting a year and a half!

I meant to post the other day, Monday, the day that I began the lupron but I had a big A&P test on Tuesday so I was studying. Anyways it was an experience. I was really kind of freaked out about it. My mom came over to the apartment for moral support. Jeff was still at work and I needed to get the shot done and over with for my own sanity! So after a false start (there was more resistance to pushing the needle into my belly than I anticipated) I gave myself the shot and lo and behold, it wasn’t bad at all! Last night I gave myself my shot at work (the joys of working evenings during IVF) which went fine. I went to Walmart last week and bought a little insulated lunch bag and a ice pack to keep my meds refrigerated when I am at school and driving in the car and such.

I spend Tuesday morning babysitting my nieces. Oh my gosh they crack me up! Nadia put her Elmo Easter basket on her head and was marching around her living room like a marching band member. And Sasha is so close to walking and its driving her nuts that she isn’t quite there. That kid gets so frustrated and mad when she can’t do something. But then when she does do it or gets to the item she wants, she gives the biggest smile with her four little teeth showing. Nadia is so smart for her age. She is saying three and four word sentences. She is just like my sister and Sasha is just like a little mini version of my brother in law. I can’t wait to give them a little cousin to play with!

Alright, I suppose I should go and be productive and study or something. Or maybe I will look online to find a pretty dress to wear to this wedding…

April 16, 2008

My puppy isn’t such a puppy anymore….

Filed under: Furbabies,infertility ripples,IVF #1 — by Jess @ 2:23 pm
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So I should clarify something. While I refer to Daphne as a puppy, she is not. She is actually going to be 8 years old this summer. I brought her to the vet yesterday and found out that my Daphne has arthritis in her elbow on the leg that she was limping with. She is now on a pain med till Saturday and will be on joint supplements for the rest of her life. I think it may have been aggravated by the fact that Jeff and I got a new bed frame recently which is higher than our old one. I think it is just too much for her. Of course there is no way to stop her from jumping up there so hopefully the joint supplement will cushion her joints and make it easier for her. I am just glad that she is okay.

I got all of my meds yesterday! I am excited and anxious for Monday to come. I want to get things moving here. It looks like my period should start around 4/27 and they are estimating that ER and ET will be the week of May 14th. Which of course is the week of my friends wedding and my nieces birthday and my birthday! The IVF nurse suggested that I could push things back a week if I want so that I will definitely be free for that weekend. HA! I think another week of waiting to start would kill me. No thanks, I will gladly miss the wedding and/or Sasha’s birthday party if needed. It would be kinda cool to have one or the other land on my birthday!

Its funny to me how much the infertility has become a part of my daily life. Battling this disease isn’t even an option for me. Its a necessity. As I was explaining the shots to my sister she told me she hopes my kids will know how much I went through to get them someday. To me there was no choice about if we should do IVF or not. I guess its the way I grew up. My brother was diagnosed with pediatric bipolar when he was 7 years old. My family has always just approached struggles head on and just pull together and do what needs to be done. Same thing when my gram was paralyzed after a doc screwed up a surgery or when my uncle died 2 months after my gram’s surgery and my mom and uncle had to tell my gram that her oldest son was dead. We Rowlands just pick up the pieces, put them together as best as we can and push on through. That is the way I feel about IVF. Do I want to give myself shots? Not at all. But thats what has to happen so that the way it will be. I think my sister thinks I am a little crazy for going through all of this. LOL I guess that what happens when one sister is fertile myrtle and the other isn’t. But just as my sister will do anything for her two daughters, I feel the intense need to do whatever is needed to bring my children into the world. I know that I am suppose to be a mom. It is something I have dreamed about since I was a little girl. So if I have to go through IVF or adoption to achieve that calling, so be it. I know that God will give me the desires of my heart. He would not have given me such a strong desire for motherhood if it wasn’t meant to be.

April 15, 2008

My poor puppy…

Filed under: Furbabies — by Jess @ 12:07 pm

Yesterday I went to the IVF protocol class. Needless to say it was very informative and slightly overwhelming. My mom went with me (Jeff had to work) and she was blown away by everything that is involved in this process. She was funny. She freaked out when she saw one of the really big needles that comes on the syringe but you discard it and replace it with a much nicer needle.

However my bigger issue today is my dog Daphne. Last night I noticed she was limping a bit when I put her outside and when she came back in but I didn’t think much of it. This morning Jeff woke me up and said something was wrong with Daph. She is seriously limping. We were looking at her paw and he touched a spot and she started to freak out and yelp. So Daph and I are going to the vet at 9:30 this morning. I hope she is okay. My poor baby…

I will check in again later.

April 11, 2008

Breaking News!!!

Filed under: Hubby — by Jess @ 5:11 pm

I just got a call from my husband who told me he isn’t being transferred after all!!!! Wooohooo! I don’t know the whole story but apparently one of the other guys put his letter of resignation in this morning. Jeff said he would tell me the whole story when he gets home. I just wanted to pass the good news along!

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April 4, 2008

We are in business!

Filed under: IVF #1,school — by Jess @ 5:29 pm
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I just got off the phone with one of the IVF nurses and she is ordering my meds on Monday!!! I am so excited that things are moving along! She was so nice! Oh and she told me that day 5 transfers ARE covered with my insurance company! Woohooo! I feel so much better about having that option available to us! I am so exited.

On that note, I have to get ready to go to my stupid A+P lab….I can’t wait for this semester to be over….

Ask and you shall receive….and furbabies

Filed under: Furbabies,IVF #1 — by Jess @ 1:07 pm
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Two days ago I came on here and complained about needing to wait for my period. Well, lo and behold I woke up in the middle of the night (I have horrible insomnia issues) and went to the bathroom and HOLY CRAP there is my period! I can’t believe it, a 30 day cycle! Thats the shortest cycle I have had since I started TTC. Its the little things that excite me!
So I called the IVF nurses to report CD 1 and I am currently waiting for them to call me back. I am excited that my period came early. My friend, the one whose bridal shower I went to a few weeks back, is getting married in the middle of May (on my birthday actually!) Anyways I was concerned that my ER or ET was going to land on the wedding day, which would be really upsetting to me. Of course it still could but I think I have a better chance now of being able to go to the wedding. My friend would understand if I couldn’t go, but I would feel awful about it. She was one of my bridesmaids and I love her to pieces. So hopefully it will work out.


I have two cats and a dog. This is Dusty, she is 1 years old. My husband works for a store where he delivers furniture, electronics etc. Anyway he was on a delivery one day and there was a litter of kittens and Dusty was one of them. Now she is a monstrous 11 pound cat.

This is Daisy. She was our first kitten. We got her last winter. She is also a year old. I found her at a shelter in town and we adopted her. She is a dainty little girl, which was proven at the vet the other day when she weighed in at 6.5 lbs.

And this is my first love Daphne. She was originally my sister’s dog, when we were all still living at home. My sister met her fiance who is allergic to animals. So Daphne became my first baby. She is a Lhasa Apso and the funniest dog I have ever met. This pic was taken on vacation last summer. We go to Lake Champlain in Vermont and rent a cabin for the week. The bedroom doors have a space of about 6 inches at the bottom and Daph was in the bedroom looking out into the living room. She will be 8 years old in July and weighs 10 pounds (yes thats right Dusty the monster weighs more than Daph)
Dusty is getting fixed on Monday morning. We have to figure out a way to keep her NPO Sunday after 10pm. I think we are just going to take the water and food up off the floor and make sure the toilet seat is down (yes the stupid cat likes to drink out of the toilet) Dusty is in heat right now and driving me crazy so I will be glad once the surgery is done!
So I guess I will finish this post up with some other pics of my furbabies (just b/c they are so darn cute!)


Top: Dusty at 6 weeks
Bottom: Daisy at 3 months

April 2, 2008

Hurry up and wait….

Filed under: prep for IVF #1 — by Jess @ 6:03 am

Cycle Day 29…should have my period by this time next week. I don’t know why I was kidding myself, but I thought maybe my body would cooperate and actually have a normal length cycle this month since I am eagerly anticipating starting birth control and getting this show on the road. Silly silly girl….

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