Life with Baby K

May 19, 2008

WTF!!!

Filed under: IVF #1,Prep for IVF #1 Round 2 — by Jess @ 11:11 pm
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So today sucked. I got a call from the clinic today around 12:30. Except instead of one of the nurses, it was the head doctor whom I have only met once. As soon as he identified himself, my stomach dropped. I knew that this wasn’t good. So apparently there is a reason my follicles didn’t grow over the weekend: on Friday my estrogen level was 175 and today it was…..drum roll please…..164! WTF! My estrogen went down!!! The doc asked me what dosages I have been taking, I told him and he confirmed that I was taking what I was suppose to. So here is the kicker, he tells me that they are going to have the lab redo the blood level to see if there was an error, but that if it is correct that they are going to have to cancel my cycle!!! There are only a few times in my life I have been truly speechless and today was definitely one of them. I just froze. I didn’t expect that at all. Once I collected myself I asked if there was anything we could do to save the cycle. He said that at this point there its not going to work to do IVF because I just don’t have enough follicles. He said that if we wanted we could do an IUI. I told him I would have to think about it and talk to Jeff.

So when the nurse called later to tell me that the second estrogen level came back the same, I had had time to write down some of my questions. I asked what would cause my level to go down even though I was taking my meds like a good girl. They basically said that they don’t know why that happened and that they are as confused and surprised as me. I guess this just wasn’t the protocol for me. They told me to increase my gonal-F from 225 to 300 and stick with one vial of menopur with 5 units of lupron. I am going in on Wednesday morning to see if my two lonely follicles will mature. If they do, then we will do the IUI but if there is no change again than we are going to scrap this cycle, get myself some provera and have round two of this IVF stuff.

I am so pissed off that this didn’t work. I am angry that the meds didn’t do what they were suppose to do. I am frustrated that I have been shooting myself up for almost a month and have gotten no where. I am annoyed that I have drove 1.5 hours each way at freakin’ 6am to get to the hospital for 7:30am on 4 different occasions when gas is $3.75/gallon.

Yes I am pissed and angry and bitter and have said the word “fuck” more today that I think I have in my whole life.

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6 Comments »

  1. Whaaaaaaat? Your estrogen went DOWN?

    Damn. That completely sucks! I’m so sorry. I know how much of a disappointment it is.

    Fuck.

    GonalF should work miricles, it’s like $350 a vial!

    I was on 375iu, but I didn’t have any Menopur with it. Next time I get the maximum, like 450iu. Ohmygaaa that’s gonna be expensive!

    Sorry to blab. I’m so sorry about this. Maybe we’ll cycle again together and have better results.

    Sending you hugs…

    Comment by PJ — May 20, 2008 @ 12:47 am |Reply

  2. PJ I thought of you right away when I heard about my cycle being canceled. Its kinda funny in a shitty way that we started cycling together and then have both ended up responding badly and getting converted to IUIs….hopefully life goes better next time!

    Comment by Jess — May 20, 2008 @ 12:51 am |Reply

  3. Its a frustrating journey…but hopefully one that ends with a bundle of joy!

    I hope that if you do an IUI that its just as successful for you.

    I will be keeping tack of you here and on DS.

    Comment by familyoftwo98 — May 20, 2008 @ 1:16 am |Reply

  4. I’m sorry. This just totally sucks big time.

    Comment by Alison — May 20, 2008 @ 2:13 pm |Reply

  5. I’m so sorry this has happened. I’ll be thinking good thoughts for you and whatever comes next.

    Comment by Kymberli — May 21, 2008 @ 2:07 am |Reply

  6. You’re right. That fucking sucks.

    Keep on them for answers, too! I feel like doctors want to take all the credit when things go right, but then jump back when something goes wrong.

    ((hugs))

    Comment by Jen — May 21, 2008 @ 9:37 am |Reply


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