Life with Baby K

July 30, 2008

Because I am bored…

Filed under: silly stuff — by Jess @ 10:30 pm

I am bored at work, waiting for the next shift to come in so I thought I would do this. Every question has to be answered in one word.

1. Where is your cell phone? pocket
2. Your significant other? home
3. Your hair? ponytail
4. Your mother? bestfriend
5. Your father? loyal
6. Your favorite thing? Daphne
7. Your dream last night? strange
8. Your favorite drink? dietcoke
9. Your dream/goal? mommy
10. The room you’re in? nursingstation

11. Your hobby? sleep
12. Your fear? lighting
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? house
14. What you’re not? rich
15. Muffins? blueberry
16. One of your wish list items? house
17. Where you grew up? massachusetts
18. The last thing you did? phone
19. What are you wearing? clothes
20. Favorite gadget? laptop
21. Your pets? love
22. Your computer? wonderful
23. Your mood? sick
24. Missing someone? Gram
25. Your car? Issues…
26. Something you’re not wearing? socks
27. Favorite store? clothes
28. Like someone? hubby
29. Your favorite color? purple
30. When is the last time you laughed? today
31. Last time you cried? BFP

July 25, 2008

A letter to my friends

I just sent the following email to my friends and family. I felt like it would be the best way to let people know and to also to get people to pray for me. I am feeling very anxious right now. My last bloodwork was on Monday and my ultrasound isn’t until August 5. I feel like I have no idea what is going on in my uterus. Logically I know that everything is probably okay, but what if its not. I just want to enjoy this pregnancy and not spend the time freaking out. And once I have my ultrasound, I will be worried until the next milestone. I never thought that I would get a doppler but I think for my own sanity I may have to. At what point can someone start to use a doppler. I know its not until at least 12 weeks. How exactly does it work, anyone know?

Anyways, here is the email I sent out:

Hello Friends!!!
      This is an email I have wanted to write for a year and a half. Some of you are aware of the infertility struggle Jeff and I have been enduring since we got married in Oct of 2006. This has been a long, hard, emotionally draining process. We began trying to conceive shortly after our wedding and figured it wouldn’t be long before I was pregnant. However, things didn’t work out as we would have wished. During the summer of 2007 we began testing to determine if there was a medical reason we weren’t becoming pregnant. The testing indicated problems which required a specialist’s help. Unfortunately, the insurance company would only pay for the treatment after a year of trying on our own. So while we knew it was unlikely we would become pregnant on our own, we had to continue trying for another 6 months. Finally in January of 2008 Jeff and I went to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist in Springfield as Baystate Medical Center. It was there, after further testing, that we learned our only chance of having our own biological children was through In Vitro Fertilization. We began our first IVF cycle in April and May of 2008. Unfortunately, my body did not respond to the medications correctly and the cycle had to be canceled. So after the doctors at Baystate came up with a new medication protocol, we began again. This time my body responded beautifully and five days after retrieving my eggs, the doctor placed one beautiful embryo back inside of me. And I am beyond excited to share with you that I am currently five weeks pregnant!!!
        While I am nervous about sharing this with all of you, simply because it is still early in the pregnancy, I am doing to because I am in need of your prayers. This pregnancy was hard to come by and I am very anxious about it turning out okay. I go for my first ultrasound on August 5. I will be 6 weeks and 5 days pregnant by then. We should be able to see the baby’s heartbeat on the ultrasound that day. Right now that is what I am holding onto. Please pray for Jeff and I and our little baby. We have wanted this for so long and God has finally blessed us with this pregnancy. We all know the power of prayer and my newly forming family needs those prayers. Please pray for peace of mind for Jeff and I, that we would be able to relax and enjoy this pregnancy. We don’t want to spend the next 8 months in fear of things going wrong. We want to enjoy this experience as we prepare for the arrival of our baby. I will be sure to keep you updated as the pregnancy progresses.
        Thank you all so much for your friendships. Each of you are a huge part of my life and you all mean so much to me.
                    Jess (and little Baby K!!!)

July 21, 2008


Filed under: Baby on Board,school — by Jess @ 10:45 pm
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My second beta this morning was 394, that’s more than four times what it was on Friday!!! My ultrasound is scheduled for August 5! I am so excited!!! We have told most of our close family. I am playing with what I am going to do in regards to school. I am suppose to start the nursing program this fall, and I would still like to. However I am hoping to be able to take a year off starting the Spring of 2009. Well actually I would be taking a year off of the program but I still have to take microbiology, which would be wonderful to take in the Fall of 2009 and then rejoin the nursing program in the spring of 2010. But I don’t know if that is possible or not. But at the same time, I hate to change all of my plans in case (God forbid) something happens with the pregnancy. The other option would be to just defer my admission to the nursing program until Fall of 2009, which is when I originally thought I was going to be entering the program before they found a spot for me this fall. I just don’t know what to do. If anyone has any words of wisdom as to what I should do, perhaps stories of people who went through nursing school while pregnant, or anything else that might be of use.

July 18, 2008

Drumroll please…

Filed under: Baby on Board,IVF #1 Round 2 — by Jess @ 3:09 pm
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My beta today was 93!!!! I go back on Monday to recheck it. Jeff and I are on our way out to lunch to celebrate, so I will update more later!

July 16, 2008

Pretty little thing in my purse…

Filed under: Baby on Board,IVF #1 Round 2 — by Jess @ 6:29 pm
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I have this pretty little thing in my purse. Some people would find it strange that I am carrying it around in my bag with me. Personally I think its the best little pick me up I have seen in a long time. You see in my purse is a thing which changed my life forever. Its confirmation that good things do happen and they even happen to me.

Currently in my purse, sitting in the back room at work is the most beautiful word I have ever seen: “Pregnant!” Thats right, displayed on the most wonderful hpt ever is the word pregnant and the best news is that there is no “not” listed before it! Just pregnant! I, Jessica Jane K, am pregnant! How much better can the world possibly get???

Of course the official beta isn’t until Friday, but I am feeling very confident about this. I even took the last walmart hpt I had left and that came up clearly positive too!!! My friends, it does appear that I am going to be a mommy!!!!

July 15, 2008


Filed under: family,IVF #1 Round 2 — by Jess @ 6:51 pm
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I have been trying to lay low and not over think everything. Which is of course nearly impossible. I have been trying to tell my self that the strange little stomach cramps are just gas pains or something. Or that my moodiness is just from the waiting. Or that the nausea I feel every time I have my mom’s potato salad that I normally love, is just from the heat. But you see I don’t think I believe that. Or at least I don’t want to believe that. I want to believe that these are all early pregnancy signs. And to tell you a little secret, one that I haven’t even shared with Jeff, I think that they are. I bought some cheap wal.mart preg tests and have been peeing on them frequently. Because there was just no way I could wait till Wednesday like I said I would. So the first day was clearly neg. But the second test had a faint second line. Of course I thought i was seeing things. So later in the day when I had a stockpile of pee in my bladder, I took another test. Again there appeared to be a second line. However, because I wasn’t positive about it, I haven’t told anyone. But I bought today a pack of three EPT digital tests because I am done messing around with lines. And three was the perfect number because I can take one every morning starting tomorrow morning through Friday morning when I go for my beta. So we will see what is what in the morning when we are dealing with words, not stupid lines.

In other news my mom was in a car accident on Monday. She was rear ended and has some serious whiplash going on. The doctor also thinks something is going on with the nerves in her neck because she is having a lot tingling going from her right shoulder all the way to her fingers. Poor thing, I feel bad for her.  She is in a lot of pain right now and could use any prayers for comfort you guys can give.

Thats pretty much the latest over here in Massachusetts. There is more drama happening with my sister. The long and short of it is that she didn’t show up for a birthday dinner on Sunday for my dad and for Jeff and it was the needle that broke the camels back and now everything is at a stalemate. Drama, drama, drama! Not what I need this week so I am trying to ignore it as much as possible.

July 13, 2008


Filed under: silly stuff — by Jess @ 3:02 pm

I saw this on a few different blogs and decided to give it a try

July 12, 2008

The Nagging Wife vs. The Husband with the Thick Head

Filed under: Hubby,IVF #1 Round 2 — by Jess @ 11:29 pm
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Sometimes I really feel like knocking my husband upside his head! I don’t want to be the nagging wife, yet I feel like I have to nag and yell at him for things to get through his head. He doesn’t think about how much money things cost. He took money out of our bank account again today for stupid stuff without checking with me first. He has no clue what is coming out of our bank account on what days or what bills are due when. Ahhhh, he drives me crazy sometimes! He has never had any financial responsibilities before we got married and he just doesn’t get it. It was only $20 but he does this often. I ended up yelling at him tonight and he said he was sorry and would put the money back in when he gets paid next week. But experience tells me that this won’t be the last time this happens. I could try to sit down with him and show him what we have for bills every month but he gets the glazed over, checked out look on his face whenever I try to sit him down to discuss things like that. (Picture wedding planning…) I know that we have only been married for a couple of year (two years in Oct) and that young married couples go through ups and downs, especially when you through infertility into the mix as well. But gosh I don’t like the hard and frustrating times!!!

I am moody and hormonal and it is probably being made ten times worse due to my hormones….I love my husband more than anything, sometimes I just feel the need to kick him! You know???

Oh by the way, I POAS this morning and it was negative so the trigger shot is out of my system!!! I am going to try to make it until Wednesday to test again. We’ll see how that works out.

July 11, 2008

I am with embryo!

Filed under: IVF #1 Round 2 — by Jess @ 6:52 am

Yesterday was my embryo transfer and we successfully transfered one embryo. We went in with the intention of transferring two but the doc and my nurse Ellen really recommended only transferring one. They told us that we had beautiful embryos, some of the best that the lab has ever seen. They gave us a 60% chance of implantation. Since having twins was never my goal and I only wanted to transfer two in order to increase the chances of having at least one implant, I feel mostly comfortable with the fact that we transferred only one. Once and a while I become a little panicky, but I just keep telling myself to have faith in the embryo. We had 4 blasts that they were able to freeze for the future. 

So I have been trying to take it really easy. I spent all day yesterday laying down. I am working today but I am staying off my feet and taking it easy. Thankfully I am supervising an new employee who is at the tail end of her orientation, so she is doing all of the hard work.  Of course I did fall on my ass today at work when I went to sit on a stool. Fabulous. Hopefully I didn’t knock the embryo off from its implantation journey. 

I am really nausous today. I think it is from the heat. Its obviously not morning sickness, that would be way too fast! But I do feel like I am going to toss my cookies everynow and again. Gross.

So my beta is on Friday July 18, 2008!!!

July 7, 2008

Heading for Day 5!

Filed under: IVF #1 Round 2 — by Jess @ 10:46 pm

Given how my first cycle went and how the start of this cycle went, I keep waiting for something to happen. Before my retrieval I was convinced that we would have very few eggs. Wrong, we got 28. Then I figured that the fertilization would be crappy due to the insurance saying Jeff’s sperm samples were just above what they required for ICSI. Wrong, my some divine act his sample from that day fit into the insurance criteria and they did ICSI after all. Then I figured most of them wouldn’t fertilize, good Lord was I wrong about that, 18 of them did. So after all of that good luck I was really scared of what would happen today when the clinic called to tell me if we would be doing a day 3 (today) or day 5 transfer (Wednesday). Well they called this morning and told me we are going for a day 5. I was so excited I almost didn’t think to ask how many embryos are still with us. But I did and guess what they told me!!! 15 are still kicking!! Holy crap!

Jeff and I have decided to transfer two embryos on Wednesday. This was such a hard stimulation cycle, physically and emotionally, that I want to increase our chances of having this work out in the end. I was surprised that Jeff went along with it so willingly when I brought it up to him. He had been very fearful of twins so I didn’t know how he would react, but he is okay with it.

Things are looking up around here and I couldn’t be happier!!!

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