Life with Baby K

December 3, 2008

Sigh of relief

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I went to the doctor today and things look like they are going to be okay. My cervix remains closed, a fetal fibronectin test came back negative.  I have been cleared to go back to work tomorrow. So while they will continue to watch me very closely, for now we are okay. My next appointment is in 2 weeks. I get to have the fun glucose tolerance test at that appointment.  I also have an ultrasound in 2 weeks. My child was completely uncooperative at the 18 week ultrasound and wouldn’t uncross its legs. So my MIL who works on the maternity floor where I plan to have the baby talked with the midwife and they worked it out to get me another ultrasound. I love having connections!

December 1, 2008

Its been a long time…

Filed under: Baby on Board,pregnancy worries — by Jess @ 5:54 pm
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Hello out there!!!

Okay so I have been a very bad blogger over the last few months. I have wanted to write several times, but felt like I had nothing much to say. I suppose it takes a small crisis it get me to post a new entry.  Rather than retype the whole story I am going to cut and paste an email I sent out to some of my friends and family and then I will pick up with some other stuff after the letter:


Hello everyone,
As most, if not all of you know, I found out I was pregnant this summer after a successful IVF cycle. Things have been going smoothly, minus an uncooperative child who wouldn’t uncross its legs for an ultrasound. Yesterday, things began to change. I woke up not feeling quite right, feeling a little off, but ignored it and went about my way. I went to church in the morning, went to Walmart in the afternoon for groceries, and then came home and with my brother and Jeff, gave my dog Daphne a bath and haircut. Around 6pm I noticed I was having some cramps. I was relaxing on the couch kind of observing what was going on. About 25 minutes later I alerted Jeff that I wasn’t feeling well and that I didn’t know the difference between a cramp and a contraction. So we called my doctor, who told me to get something to eat and drink and lay down and see how it goes. So I did, but it wasn’t going away. So around 7:30 we went up to the hospital and got attached to the monitors. Because I am only 23 weeks, the machines were having a hard time detecting if there were any contractions or not. However the nurse checked my cervix and said she wasn’t sure if it was closed. So the doctor was called in, I was given a shot of terbutaline to stop any contractions. When the doctor came in he checked me, said that my cervix is closed but its soft. It shouldn’t be soft at this point in the pregnancy. I have an appointment with a midwife tomorrow morning where I will be asking 101 questions. I don’t know fully what this all means, but yesterday when the doctor told me that my cervix was soft, I was so overwhelmed, I couldn’t ask him any questions other than what would have caused this, to which he said that no one knows what causes labor or cervix changes. At this point he said I was having preterm contractions, but was not in preterm labor. I don’t know if I am going to end up on bed rest or what is going to happen. Obviously I will do whatever is needed to protect my child, however, having to stop working at this point would create a lot of financial issues. Please pray for things to stay quiet and for my cervix to remain closed. Prayers for avoiding bed rest would be appreciated as well.
I will keep you all updated.
Thanks for your love and support,
Jess, Jeff and Baby K


Okay so my question for everyone out there is has anyone ever had something like this happen to them? As of now I know that my cervix is closed but I don’t know how long that will continue. I don’t know if I am making a huge deal out of something that isn’t such a big deal. I don’t know whats going to happen but I am kind of freaking out. If anyone has any advice or personal experience I would love to hear it!

By the way, even though I have been MIA on my blog, I have been reading everyones stories and I am so excited for everyone who is pregnant currently and my heart and prayers go out to everyone who is currently in treatment.

September 10, 2008


Filed under: Baby on Board,pregnancy worries — by Jess @ 11:19 am
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Last night I had a scare. I was at work and went to the bathroom for the hundredth time on my shift and noticed that when I wiped there was blood. Of course I freaked out. I have spotted before but it has always been after having sex. And since it has been about a week, I was scared because this spotting was unexplained. I told my charge nurse that I needed to go make a phone call to the doc and told her what was happening. I went outside and called Jeff and then called the doc. My OB was on call so he called me back and wasn’t very concerned. He said as long as I didn’t have any cramping and that the bleeding didn’t get heavy that he didn’t think it was worth going to the ER for.  I really didn’t appreciate his dismissive tone, I knew he was right. So I am going to be seen this afternoon by one of the midwives in the practice (actually the one I saw first about my inability to get pregnant) The bleeding has stopped. I haven’t had any cramping. So I think I am ok. But I will feel better after hearing the heartbeat/seeing the baby.

Okay so here is the question of the day. Last night as I was trying to go to sleep all I could think of is how much I wished I had a doppler. Of course I have no idea which brands are the best ones so if those of you who have dopplers could let me know what kind you have and if you would recommend it or not, that would be wonderful.

I will update after my appt this afternoon.

August 18, 2008

Back from vacation

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Well, I am back from my vacation. Which was wonderful, except for the fact that it rained about 75% of the week. But we had a great time and were sad to see the week end. We are definitely planning on going back there next summer (with baby in tow!)

As far as the pregnancy goes, so far it has been pretty easy in regards to the symptoms. I have had some morning sickness and have vomited a few times (three times on vacation, my poor mom must have started to feel that the baby didn’t like her food. I threw up twice after eating her waffles!) Also I am still really tired. But I am not complaining!

My first OB appt is not for another week, Aug 26. I am a bit nervous about this appt. I love my RE nurses and am not sure how I feel about being a part of the “fertile” world. I think even my sister thinks I am a little out there with some of my worries, but then again she gets pregnant just by looking at her fiance I think. If anyone out there has any words of wisdom or funny stories or anything else of interest about first OB appts after IF, I would love to hear them!

Opps, we are getting a big thunderstorm and my dog Daphne is freaking out. I guess I should go comfort my poor puppy dog! Oh she is shaking!

August 4, 2008

One more sleep…

Filed under: Baby on Board,pregnancy worries — by Jess @ 2:56 pm
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One more sleep until we learn if this pregnancy is going okay or not. One more sleep until we know what the next 8 months will look like. Tomorrow we go for our first ultrasound. I will be 6w4d. Hopefully everything will be perfect and we will be able to see the heartbeat. I do believe everything will be okay, however there is the underlying nagging doubt which I can’t seem to ignore. What if it is not okay? What if everything isn’t as it should be and they tell me the pregnancy isn’t viable. I can’t even imagine.

In other, less serious news, we are going on vacation on Saturday morning and I can’t wait! We are going to Lake Champlain, on the Vermont side. My parents, brother, and my in laws are going with us too. We have rented three cabins. I am so excited to get away and just relax. I hope the weather is good though. It has been just raining and raining for about a week now. I am tired of it. Hopefully next week will be clearer and nice and hot since I plan to spend some quality time in the swimming pool!!

I have been so exhausted recently. I know that its a pregnancy side effect, but good Lord I feel like I could sleep for 22 out of 24 hours a day. Hopefully this exhaustion will be limited to the first trimester or I am going to be screwed when school starts in September!! I have been having a lot of nausea too. I vomitted for the first time this weekend while I was at work. That’s always a good time.

I will check in tomorrow after the ultrasound. Keep us in your thoughts and prayers.

July 25, 2008

A letter to my friends

I just sent the following email to my friends and family. I felt like it would be the best way to let people know and to also to get people to pray for me. I am feeling very anxious right now. My last bloodwork was on Monday and my ultrasound isn’t until August 5. I feel like I have no idea what is going on in my uterus. Logically I know that everything is probably okay, but what if its not. I just want to enjoy this pregnancy and not spend the time freaking out. And once I have my ultrasound, I will be worried until the next milestone. I never thought that I would get a doppler but I think for my own sanity I may have to. At what point can someone start to use a doppler. I know its not until at least 12 weeks. How exactly does it work, anyone know?

Anyways, here is the email I sent out:

Hello Friends!!!
      This is an email I have wanted to write for a year and a half. Some of you are aware of the infertility struggle Jeff and I have been enduring since we got married in Oct of 2006. This has been a long, hard, emotionally draining process. We began trying to conceive shortly after our wedding and figured it wouldn’t be long before I was pregnant. However, things didn’t work out as we would have wished. During the summer of 2007 we began testing to determine if there was a medical reason we weren’t becoming pregnant. The testing indicated problems which required a specialist’s help. Unfortunately, the insurance company would only pay for the treatment after a year of trying on our own. So while we knew it was unlikely we would become pregnant on our own, we had to continue trying for another 6 months. Finally in January of 2008 Jeff and I went to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist in Springfield as Baystate Medical Center. It was there, after further testing, that we learned our only chance of having our own biological children was through In Vitro Fertilization. We began our first IVF cycle in April and May of 2008. Unfortunately, my body did not respond to the medications correctly and the cycle had to be canceled. So after the doctors at Baystate came up with a new medication protocol, we began again. This time my body responded beautifully and five days after retrieving my eggs, the doctor placed one beautiful embryo back inside of me. And I am beyond excited to share with you that I am currently five weeks pregnant!!!
        While I am nervous about sharing this with all of you, simply because it is still early in the pregnancy, I am doing to because I am in need of your prayers. This pregnancy was hard to come by and I am very anxious about it turning out okay. I go for my first ultrasound on August 5. I will be 6 weeks and 5 days pregnant by then. We should be able to see the baby’s heartbeat on the ultrasound that day. Right now that is what I am holding onto. Please pray for Jeff and I and our little baby. We have wanted this for so long and God has finally blessed us with this pregnancy. We all know the power of prayer and my newly forming family needs those prayers. Please pray for peace of mind for Jeff and I, that we would be able to relax and enjoy this pregnancy. We don’t want to spend the next 8 months in fear of things going wrong. We want to enjoy this experience as we prepare for the arrival of our baby. I will be sure to keep you updated as the pregnancy progresses.
        Thank you all so much for your friendships. Each of you are a huge part of my life and you all mean so much to me.
                    Jess (and little Baby K!!!)

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